Friday, January 27, 2006 •
dilemmas.
mistakes.
secrets.
the past haunting.
it's tough.
i'm scared.
but time won't stand still.
decisions.
regrets.
i dislike all these abt growing up.
maybe i'm like a wuss sometimes.
i like to hide and run away.
depends on the issue really.
makes me wanna cry.
how positive can one stay.
how long can one believe.
positive thoughts might just be illusions.
sigh.
Sunday, January 15, 2006 •
updates updates (just quick ones because i have tons to do but i can't neglect my blog too.. hee):
IHG track double gold!!!!! the girls and guys ran their hearts out and yay! we won. being the team manager of the day due to the injury, i am still extremely happy for them. a bit upset tt i wasn't running but still, sincerely happy! i was like the most excited timekeeper too! bouncing and hopping ard. well i guess cos the other timekeepers were from KE7 and RH. (for those who don't really know, i guess these two halls generally don't really have strong sporting tradition)
next, IVP yesterday! girls are doing well. leading by many pts. guys are hmm close behind NTU. hopefully all goes well. i was team manager again. didn't run. perhaps next week.
tons of sch work to be done. tutorial for tmr undone. initially chris and i went to co-op to buy the textbooks. but they were all either out of stock or not in yet. and the lecturer for tmr's class, which is my block RF, knows. so he said that the book is available in the HSS lib. RBR. which erm i don't frequent not borrowed a book from. yet today, on a sunday. for the first time, i went to lib to borrow the textbook! haha.. since it's actually supposed to be on a 2 hr loan, and i went there like 15mins b4 closing time, i got the book until 9am tmr. okay.. i know this is a very small issue but i really felt rather accomplished. hahaha... speaks volumes of my attitude towards sch work so far i guess... *embarrassed* anyway, i have the book. now the question is if i can do the work. i am seriously worried. next next, ppt on tuesday. still in the process of preparing. i gotta go faster. :(
DP PR stuff. letter to be written. and it's supposed to be done ASAP. gee. DP Dance stuff. I missed one week of dance due to the injury too. I hope i can catch up. I'm not exactly confident this year. everything seems to be moving so quickly. too fast for me to follow. i'm not really speaking abt the dance steps, but more like just everything. maybe i'm just getting older.
these are probably the stuff on my mind right now. there are others but comparatively less significant i guess.. like CNY shopping.. haha.. okay. i gtg. peeps, have a great week ahead! :)
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 •
i pulled my hamstring yesterday. just two days before ihg track, and 5 days before ivp track. :(
even though all along i have not been very keen in competing.. (even though i still am pulled into such activities) i was definitely upset and disappointed. i guess most sportmen will understand. i guess not only sportsmen but anyone who has put in effort into stuff and yet at the end of the day ur effort is kinda in a way not realised.
ivp track and field started out for fun, after a few years of not running that competitively! then it really became a commitment, esp as captain. not just the administrative side but it was like i had to lead by example. that was difficult because my interest in track and field was already on a low. then i got the hang of training. in a way it helped me keep fit..etc haha.. and no doubt december holidays as dingding says is the blackening and shrinking period. now, i lead my team to the ivp championships with a strained hamstring. gee. looking back, the team except for a few people, was never really like a team team. but i guess it's so much better than the past 2 years already. i started from scratch. with no one. just me and kenneth in a way, going for training. then came along mr melvin tan, our coach, and more people.. slowly but surely, there was people at every training. we actually had training! haha.. that never did happen for the past few years. please let everything turn out fine. it's crunch time for the next two weeks.
speaking of which, sch has begun. and i've a presentation next week. gosh. how fast is that rite.. and sigh i'm really getting worried cos a few of my lessons so far are really a bit difficult to grasp. but i will persevere. i will. i must. no more last minute work. hopefully.
last but not the least, rach and lav are finally back from their one semester exchange. i'm glad. it's nice for them to be around again. :)
Sunday, January 01, 2006 •
happy new year everyone!
may the year ahead be one filled with happiness.
hopefully we will keep all our resolutions!
love lots.
