Wednesday, November 30, 2005 •
yay! my 5th exams in NUS is officially over! it ended on monday 3pm and to celebrate, pudding, addie, frenchloaf and i went to town. didn't see much actually, just walked ard, window shopped a little. town is getting a wee bit boring. anyway, lorrie being the small shopaholic but with no stamina wanted to have dinner so that her feet could get some rest. so addie, frenchloaf and i went to sakae sushi at wheelock for dinner while pudding met up with her sister. frenchloaf having a new gadget - her hp, whipped it out to snap some pictures. and here's what i have to show:
Frenchloaf and I
(I had to blog with this photo caption. I do not have any other copy of this photo but now tt I've blogged with this one, I am entitled to have the original one without cute captions. haha)
Yeps, it was an enjoyable day. Not because of the activity but because of my lovely 3 friends' company. :) Now, i'm looking forward to my dec hols. a bit scary actually, when there'll be IHG, IVP trainings and dance practices all day long. least, no schwork for a month! YAYY!!!
and yep yep friends, i'll be away in bangkok until sunday! i'll miss you all..
Sunday, November 27, 2005 •
I went to two parties today!
Awful's Prata PartyAwful had a lovely birthday party with a special concept. Other than ballons leading to the party area, which was a cosy corner in the playground on the ground floor of her condominium, she invited a prata man to her party! So her guests could order any prata they desired. The prata menu included many many different flavours. From the usual plain, egg, plaster, cheese to other toppings such as mushrooms, bananas, pineapples, red bean and chocolate! I guess even though most of her guests were 20+, and me being the youngest.. we all seemed excited when placing our orders and awaiting for our pratas to be done. So yeps, that was the highlight of Awful's party - at least for me, because I had to leave early to attend Angie's party.
Awful and I
A cute picture of Awful and her birthday cake!
(I'm sorry I couldn't stay to grace the cutting of cake.)
Angie's Purple Sunflowers PartyAfter Awful's party, I headed to Downtown East Chalets for Angie's party themed "Purple Sunflowers". I would have dressed in purple if not for my lack of such coloured clothing in hall. Anyway, Angie has been a friend of mine since Primary 1. We weren't in the same Primary school class but we were in the same ballet class. Amazing isn't it.. Then, we went to the same Secondary sch and same JC. I guess we had our close friend period, then we kinda drifted a lil, but I guess we'll always remain good friends. Perhaps I don't talk to or see her often, but that doesn't change how I feel toward her. :)
By the time Lychee and I reached Angie's party, we missed the birthday song but was in time for the traditional "photo taking ceremony" and the cutting of the cake. Going to Angie's party felt good. I met her parents again, and being primary sch friends, it felt special to be recognized and to recognize her family members. I was also reminded of the good times we spent together. It has been such a while since I met up with Angie. (Probably only once a year at max after we left jc) I wish we had met up more often and maintained our friendship dearer. It always isn't that easy.
Anyway, Angie's birthday chalet was a neat place. She decorated it with purple bunches of flower like balls appropriately. She also had like a purple banner with the theme of her party handmade on the wall. Everything was well coordinated purple. Even the drink was specially chosen to be purple! Oh ya! and her sporting grandmother was dressed in purple too! from head to toe! groovy grandma ey... :) There was chill out jazz songs being played in the chalet too. I liked that. Wish I had pictures to show you guys. But I didn't bring my camera out today. So I guess will have to wait for Angie to send some to me.
Well, today was a pleasant day with two wonderful parties! And the organizers, who are also the birthday girls, did terrific jobs with both their parties! Kudos!! I wished I had planned parties like yours too. Happy birthday Awful and Happy birthday Angie. (both in advance) Love you both lots.. *hugs*
Friday, November 25, 2005 •
since i am totally not studying for my final paper on monday, perhaps i should blog.
a friend of mine, K, just won 800k from ToTo! okay. K is not really a friend of mine, an acquaintance perhaps. hehe. makes me wonder. what are the chances of people striking it big. and, also, when they do win, especially in such large amounts, why issit that they won? luck? of course. but what was it that gave them such luck? maybe if i won, i wouldn't bother what gave me such luck. hahaha..
1. issit a reflection on their morals such that they are rewarded?
2. do they have some urgent need for $ such they luck was bestowed onto them?
3. is the luck to make up for not so good luck in other areas?
4. issit like karma? like they were really kind and good in their previous lives? (if there are actually such things.. heh) this 4th pt is kinda linked to the 1st pt perhaps.
5. maybe luck is just luck. there is no explanation. hehe.
since i don't really know K well, i don't think i can comment. just makes me think. in any case, happy for a friend! yet a bit nonchalant as it doesn't benefit/concern me really. haha. if i won, it would be a different story. but i don't know if i will ever "gamble" 4D, ToTo or some sorts. mj (small stakes) is a different story. *winks*
still contented with what i have :)
Wednesday, November 23, 2005 •
in spite of the exams, i changed my blog design. thank you yeek! she provided with the codes, and i modified them. so if our friends do find it similar, yes, i am the copycat. i like this simple and neat layout though the design is overall very plain. nevertheless, i am rather happy with the outcome. not superbly happy but rather happy. i still like my old template but i guess it's time for a change. hope you all don't find the colours off. even if you do, feel free to give your constructive comments but i may just keep it the way i like it. haha..
also, if peeps are observant enough, you may realise that Lorrie's Little World is now Lorrie's World! ahaha.. i guess the "Lorrie" it in still signifies my child-like ways but i think i took out the "little" even though it can be interpreted in different ways. little as in young or little as in small in size. but i felt it just shouldn't be there anymore.
anyway, sigh, feel so guilty for spending hours on this. but i had to finish up the design, if not my mind won't be at ease. pudding is right! if only i had such perseverance with my studies. =( ahaha... yes and even though it's 3am already, i am still not sleepy! i guess i slept too much last night. 13 hrs! good, yet not so good!
alritey, i shall be off to read a few chapters hopefully before i sleep. ta!
(yeek, hope you don't find this too similar. lemme know if it's disturbing you k!)
Monday, November 21, 2005 •
i had to blog to get rid of the shadow of my last post. however, i realised that i blog better when emotionally charged. emotional nonsense seems to make sense more than rational nonsense. hehe.
i had my first out of two papers today. it was alright. least i thought so. sometimes we're in for surprises and not all surprises turn out good. anyway, having my next paper abt one week away, swanny, chris and i headed for town. it was a normal boring monday afternoon though. nothing really caught our eyes. lunch at mos. tea at haagen-dazs. tea was the "ultimate" with 4 scoops of icecream with 3 toppings! note: ultimate here is the name of the dish. hehe.. well, 3 of us shared the 4 scoops so it wasn't that sinful nor did it put a hole in our tiny pockets. we were at first thirsty and tired, but hey hey, at haagen-dazs, you get foc iced water w lemon for your icecream! which also suited our needs. :)
this semester would be the 2nd last semester i would have with dearest swanny. she's graduating next semester. looking back, it was a good 2.5 years (ss of now) in uni/1.5 years in eusoff with her. she's fun, sweet, sincere and a really good friend! i honestly relish those days especially in our freshman years. friends used to say, if lorraine is not in her room, she's in swan's room. if swan wasn't in her room, she's in lorraine's room. and a definitly most memorable was our private early xmas party in 2003 haha. a bottle of wine, vodka, one whole bbq chicken and a tiramisu cake! just the two of us! with little photos as memory, i hope these memories stay with me for the longest time.
chris is also a darling. but since there's 1.5 years more in uni with her, i shall postpone blogging about her. hehe.. (lazy lorraine)
sometimes it's rather awkward (for me) when the vj table peeps hang out and i tag along. i.e. sam fiona swan chris and i (and dawn when she's back). even though i spent 2 years in jc with them, i guess we was not exactly similar yet okay friends. swan and chris are exceptions because uni changed our relationships. and, to think of it, uni's even longer than jc! anyway, nevertheless, i always have fun when i'm out with these girls.
Friday, November 18, 2005 •
"...there is no prescription, you never recover, you never heal. Time makes it numb. But a post, a look, a smell, a song... anything... will catch you and make you realise that although numb, its still raw."
someone commented this on someone's blog and i happened to see it and how appropriate! many other comments for that entry which made me feel that i wasn't alone and that all my feelings were founded. they revolved ard losing faith in love but encouraging one another to look ard and start believing again. to never say never and that true love is out there.
a few minutes ago, i was sitting in my room crying. it's difficult to explain the emotional works of lorraine. again, the "numb yet raw" wound was perhaps discovered. it's his birthday today. i remembered. not so much i purposely made it a point to remember. but somehow i did. being nice and truly sincere, i wished him happy birthday. i wanted to say so much more in my short message, like wishing him happiness..etc but i couldn't bring myself to and perhaps felt like i shouldn't. i guess i also felt that my silent wishes for him were enough, and maybe he could sense it. haha. more importantly, he didn't have to know, at least explicitly, my love for him.
friends, don't be disappointed when i say my love for him. hehe i guess my love for him is something that evolved overtime a bit like how i love my friends and family. somehow it isn't the romantic-i-still-want-to-be-with-you love but one that is genuine i guess. maybe i'm lying to myself because it always make me upset when i think of the times we were together. even happy times make me feel upset. upset that it's all over. this whole para is a bit blurry, i can't express myself very well. (what's new)
people say he's not worth still being emotional. i think it's not worth it too. but i am. and from the bottom of my heart, i am happy when he's happy. i just can't bring myself to face his happiness. maybe cos it's something i havent found. (we're talking abt
that kinda love here)
i'm a sucker for love. and as much as my faith in love has dwindled, i'm still holding on. believing that one day i'll be crazily in love. sometimes it's scary cos i don't think i ever will again. then sometimes i'm happy i'm not in love, when i look at the people experiencing bad times ard me. the bottomline: love is a magical thing. am still thankful for my wonderful friends and family that allow me to experience it.
(blogging always calm me down. when i cry, and i blog, then the crying stops. amazing isn't it. :))
Tuesday, November 15, 2005 •
hellooooo all.. it's like almost 8 am and i'm waiting for my 830am last lesson of the semester!! woohooo! i didn't sleep the entire night. why? because i woke up after a long nap at 6pm, did my stuff i.e. dinner/supper and most importantly, i had to complete a 30% take home assignment which is due at class later. hmm seriously, i'm a super last minute person. yet, maybe this works well for me. in any case, had i started on it much much earlier, i'll prob take a longer time to finish it up. quality wise.. hmm not much of a compromise either i would think. ha. consoling myself? maybe a little. hehe
so what's happening now? erm.. i'm waiting for 8am so that i can give dearest lychee a call so tt i can hop by KR to borrow her PRINTER!!! how pathetic rite.. hahaha but i have no choice cos i have no idea who in Eusoff is awake now and willing to loan me their printer so that i and hand in my assignment at 830! computer labs in sch all open at 9am i think. hmmm anyway, to keep myself from falling asleep, i had to do something. so i was blog surfing! ahaha and yes i am across this...
| Your Hair Should Be White |
Classy, stylish, and eloquent.
You've got a way about you that floors everyone you meet. |
so bored rite... i guess when ure bored and alone and cannot sleep, there are only a few things u can do. blog, blog surf, friendster surf, watch videos/stuff, play games either like computer ones or sudoku? ahaha and maybe study. i have nothing to watch. i have no games to play. sudoku book is at home. i am in hall. i just completed an assignment = no studying for the next 12 hrs.. :) so after eliminating impossible options for me right now, i'm left with to blog and to surf friendster or other blogs. so i guess ya. i'm here right now. gee pardon the early morning syndrome.
okay times up! i think i shall prepare for class and give lychee a call and take a stroll to KR then to class. seeyall!
Monday, November 07, 2005 •
yoohoo! over the weekend, i went out with lychee.. went home and played the Sudoku puzzle because i was bored. not because i had no work to do but because i didn't bring work home!!! hmm but i guess tt was the idea, home should be relaxing hehe. i really really appreciate the time at home.
anyway, it's gonna be a hectic week. with two tests, one presentation and one assignment due. thankfully last friday, my two grp presentations went well, so much that i think i am still living on tt friday high. gotta wake up!!!!
hmm alamak. i wanted to blog more. i wanted to share and write more. but now tt i'm here, i'm lazy! like somehow the words seem stuck. unable to express myself. bleah. i am going to nap b4 i start on my work marathon. :)
Wednesday, November 02, 2005 •
oooh look it's me again! well i decided to blog before taking a shower before trying to get more stuff done before i go to bed.
my primary sch friend, rika, msned me today just to say hi. i tot it was a nice gesture. even though we didn't say much because it was just a hi how are u thingy, i guess this is what it takes to keep a friendship going. i asked her if she would be popping by sg anytime soon and she say yes! so yay!! hopefully we'll meet up again. with some other friends like amelia and yushan.
on that note, lemme rattle a bit about friends and talking to friends and maintaining friendships. i guess a problem which i face (and maybe others too) is that with friends that u haven't spoken to in a while, what can we talk abt? like how to keep the conversation going? and like how much can u probe into things without invading privacy? maybe it gotta do with the feeling and vibe but sometimes it's just a little awkward ey... and truthfully, as much as everyone is nice and sincere, and as much as everyone are good friends, it takes a lot to keep up with many groups of friends. maybe then there is a tradeoff. which is why you can't be close to all groups but usually only closer to one particular group. am i not right? or am i just not trying hard enough. if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know! :)
btw, i can't wait for exams to be over and for dec to come. if i haven't already said so. i can't wait i can't wait. until then...... i must be more disciplined. as always. what's new. hehe ta!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005 •
okaay here i am with updates!! (not much actually)
erm.. actually nothing much i guess... but... i'm still quite busy with all my projs, presentations and tests before the actual exams. good and bad i guess. then again knowing me, i still take time to stand and stare, go for training, go for dance, go for some socialising sessions (mj and what have u.. hee). which is why i guess it's true that i'm quite a last minute person even though i will definitely churn out my stuff by the deadlines. bad habits.
emotionally lorrie is the same. :) well ya. kinda so not to worry abt that friends... now what's most impt is work. i can't wait till after exams and when this semester really ends. even though i'll be busy with dance and trainings the whole day. it's really a break from work. and of cos i really really hope to squeeze in some holiday time this year. even if it's just a 3 days trip to some resort. please lemme try to get away..
i hope everyone is doing fine with exams and all. it's like the super crunch time so hang in there!!!
