Tuesday, September 27, 2005 •
this isn't a good post. why? because i'm supposed to be asleep! have a super long day later.. and remember i complain about how my mon and wed nights are the horrible nights when tues and thurs are long days. yes it's happening again still.
i went to sleep early today abt 12mn, hoping to catch 8hrs of sleep. but i woke up at 3 plus am and i've been up for about 2 hrs. hmm meaning i have 3 more hrs to sleep b4 sch. sigh. what did i do for 2 hrs? hmm.. haha chat on msn a bit, chatted to my boss in person for a while. that's all. time really flies when u're not studying ey.. hehe
anyway... realisations. yes. today my good friend talked to me abt my last post. the part about relationships. and yah.. she mentioned the part about how i realised it's myself stopping me from moving on...etc and yes lorrie has a new resolution. lorrie will not hold back. she'll try to "dare to love" and "dare to take risks" hehe... and hopefully the past will not be such a scar anymore. okay actually i don't really know what i'm talking about now. but i guess i'm blogging about it cos i want my friend to know that somehow, after the short talk with her, it all made sense and it's like there's a breakthrough. hahaha.. hope this breakthrough lasts longer than just momentarily.
still. lorrie's other resolution: to study!! hahaha hmm i think this is the only other one which i should be worrying about.
out.
Saturday, September 24, 2005 •
alcohol does one no good. i repeat. alcohol does one no good. haha how many times have i actually said tt in my blog. well, i guess a few times, always after a bash or after my clubbing night out. the only recent time i remember was an exception was still the happy happy time i went double-o with my swimming fren.
this time it does me no good not because i was feeling high or because i was drunk or because it made me sad...etc. this time i just felt normal, sober having drunk a few drinks. yet, the after effects of this alcohol is just bad. i had a horrible night. i couldn't sleep soundly. i had a nightmare. okay. it wasn't like a super scary nightmare. but it was a bad dream. it was all abt people who have haunted my past relationship. -- after so long, it's still haunting me. it's not letting me go, perhaps i am the one not letting it go. but i tried. hard enough? who is to judge. i think i did. i am not upset over him. i am not upset that he's with sumone else. but i unfortunately bump into them all the time. i either keep a straight face, give a small smile or i walk away quickly, pretending not to see them and hoping they didn't notice me. i have acknowledged the fact that he's left me for sumone else but i guess i can't accept the hurt that that was inflicted on me. my whole dream was abt "WHY WHY WHY!!" something like tt la. i know tt currently i'm not unhappy nor am i happy. but such stuff still bother me. when will i be able to let go completely. i have detached myself. but there seems to be an invisible line holding me back. i guess tt's why i can't move on. not tt i need to be attached but i guess this is undoubtedly my longest period of singlehood ever since my very first puppylove "relationship" if i can even call tt one! hee. oops. i dun mind singlehood. there are wonderful things to embrace in it too! but i dislike this nagging "concern" i have. it makes me sick.
anyway, back to the bash. it was my hall's dnd theme launch bash. the crowd was amazingly little during the programme. even frenchloaf, addie and myself had to play games. and i was accused of shirking my game responsibility of eating half a century egg to my game partner, stuff the whole egg into his mouth. hahaha errrrrm... i didn't!!! okok i stuff the egg into his mouth. but tt was after i kinda bite into my part of the egg and the egg was already dropping onto the floor so i had to quickly stuff the other unbiten part into his mouth! anyway, the whole programme was entertaining i must say. kudos to dnd programmers! as a friend of dnd, their ex-head, i still feel attached to it. i feel like i had to push sales, i feel like i still am part of them. see, i think this is what i have to let go off too. i need to learn to move on. hehe.. okok see! digressing again but yah.. bash. i didn't like the music. the drinks were diluted so it was a waste of $. i didn't get even close to high. i was perhaps only relaxed. could laugh more. but yeah tt was it.
hmm... abt one week of "holidays", break... have passed. but my time spent was almost fruitless. my fault. i didn't play yet i didn't work. i didn't have a ball of a time nor did i finish my many assignments. bad lorrie!!! sigh.. i did a bit of both only but both ain't enough. hehe.. i met up with lychee though. yesterday afternoon. we went for sushi buffet at cineleisure. waaaaaah ate until i was quite sick. maybe cos some of their stuff wasn't exactly delicious. hehe. buffets ey. took a few photos since she's a selfproclaimed photobitch and lorrie being the "act cute" photobitch. ahaha... but errm.. i haven't got them from her so naah.. no photos this time!
okok last thingy. i miss u pat. hee. i met up with lychee. i haven't been seeing MS or yeek or u. but honestly, over the years, i was and guess am closer to u and lychee. despite all you're going through, i feel like i haven't been there for u. yet u're always there for me. sometimes i dunno how to go about expressing my care and concern. but most times, i am guilty. ashamed. i guess i feel better knowing how ure doing. good or bad. and i'm glad u started a blog! :) stay strong girl and i know u'll pull though. love you!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 •
i like this photo taken by frenchloaf! it was taken on a recent windy rainy day at C3. the first curtain you see is hers, the 2nd pink translucent one is mine, followed by addie's red one then furthest away from us, the colourful striped curtain is pudding's! nice door curtains babes! :)
Wednesday, September 14, 2005 •
It has been a tiring day. But I am happy. Why? Maybe cause I am so super tired that it actually feels quite good. Those kind where you can plunge into bed, not think of anything and automatically fall asleep (I hope) :)
My usual Tuesdays and Thursdays are horrid. Today, being Tuesday, I had class from 9 to 12 then 2 to 5pm then had training from 6 to abt 8pm, then played IBG until abt 10pm, then had elections comm duty until abt 12mn. Yes. I had my dinner at midnight. Yet, i felt loved because my dear junior C blkers offered to help me buy dinner knowing tt i was still busy after our IBG games. and i also felt loved because my dearest pudding placed the food in my room! ahahaha tt's what friends are for ey.. oh ya i also felt loved because my friend got me a small gift from thailand when he went there a few mths ago and i finally received it today! and ya! there's also Awful's a song a day service that's awfully sweet. See, these are the small little things that make me happy and keep me going. Small stuff yet they mean so much. I wish I would learn from these people how to make others happier and I guess you'll be happier too! Well, I guess I try to do it as often as possible. Hehe..
Hmm, oops, just went to fill water from the kitchenette. Lost my train of thoughts there. In any case, i think i'm going to bed! goodnite all!
Monday, September 12, 2005 •
CHECK OUT LORRIE'S and FRENCHLOAF'S NEW HAIR!!
Well, yepz yepz! I rebonded my hair again. It's like the 4th time already so I don't think anyone has big comments :D I'm okay with it. It's definitely easier to manage, i.e. i don't even have to comb my hair when i wake up! But I kinda miss my "old" hair. I had a love-hate relationship with it. It definitely had more character! Lol. Oh well. hehe.. Accompanying me in a new hairdo was frenchloaf! She curled her hair. Funny how my hair became longer because it was straightened and hers became shorter because it was curled. I think she looks kawaii in them! (p/s: kawaii is an inside C3 joke)
Besides the hair indulgence, lolli, pudding, frenchloaf and wm went for LAWIV today. LAWIV is a production by fourth year NUS law students. I didn't watch the past few years' but I was told that this year's one had a lot of talent. And they were proven right, it was good!! Only a few complaints: the volume control could have been improved and it would be even more perfect if some of the singing was better. Nevertheless, I thought the script was witty and humorous and the cast all did a great job. Check out their
website!
Wednesday, September 07, 2005 •
today was my free day. no classes on wednesdays. hee. so i made my way down to bugis to have lunch with dearest Awful who is currently doing an internship. her lunch break is flexi and lasts for 2hrs!!! so we had a fabulous 2 hrs! ahahaha..
Lorrie and Awful!!
I like blogs with photos!
also, i purchased my 2nd pair of birkenstocks today! well, here's my choice!
the madrid minze
actually i like the white one. but it's super too common already considering how common birks are nowadays. then Awful helped me narrow down my choices to the ruby red leather one and this green one. but partially because of the price differentials, i eventually followed my heart and ordered the minze one!
sigh want to blog more but i need to go and play IBG now. my blk is running out of human resource. hehe i'll prolly 4get what i have to say by the time i'm back. so... till next time! :)
Tuesday, September 06, 2005 •
Let me try blogging with photos courtesy of my dearest mischievious neighbour frenchloaf. (p/s: she scribbled funny pink captions to them)
i was DILIGENTLY doing my work when she came and snapped a picture of me! yes it was a bit posed but i was REALLY doing my work until she "disturbed" me... grr.. hehe
see! so obviously, nice lorrie decided to entertain the budding photographer by acting silly! the result? an ugly photo! :(
to reward my hardwork over the weekend (one assignment and tutorial completed), i went for a pedicure and manicure! total enjoyment. an afternoon of pampering! look! :) and btw, my pedicure didn't cost $60+. $60+ was for both the mani and pedi!! gee.. i guess once in a while is okaay... *guilty* NOT... hehehe i guess i'll save on other stuff.
last but not least, a close up of my pretty pedicured toe with nail art!
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Saturday, September 03, 2005 •
hello!!! i am in dingding's room waiting for the year1 C blkers to look for me to go have lunch!
we had IBG (interblk games) for track and handball today. and.... i'm so proud of my girls.. well it's not abt winning.. i am happy that they have been going down for ibg... supporting and cheering the blk on. it's really quite good despite the lack of senior support because my blk doesn't have much seniors! at least.. seems like it! haha.. we won the track event overall! and handball we won our first game against also another made-up-of-year1s blk. then it started to pourrr and the games were cancelled. anyway, i hope that this bunch of young enthu girls don't lose sight, heart and hope for hall soon. you know how when ure tired u burn out very quickly.. yepz yepz..
tt's all for now.. shan't talk abt other bugging stuff. love ya'll! :)
