Friday, February 25, 2005 •
Men are not worth your tears. The one who is will never make you cry. Hmm.. I would like to believe in this... hehe.. oh well..
It's the end of this short 4 day mid-sem break. Apparently despite having so much to do, I have done nothing at all. :( a fren of mine also in all my classes is very stressed and worried. am i too bo-chup cos i don't really feel that way? i know being stressed and worried doesn't help things much but i am not even doing my work properly. i better get started really soon. after so long, lorraine hasn't really learnt how to get a grip being more responsible and independant.
i'm finally getting more excited over dnd! hmm i really hope things will turn out well.
Saturday, February 19, 2005 •
hi peeps! lorraine is back after abt a mth long disappearance... been superbly busy with InterHallGames (IHG) and Dance Production (DP). Super quick update: hehe..
IHG has been a blast! even though my hall, Eusoff Hall did not manage to win the overall title due to many controversies..etc, we did manage to clinch the girl's title!!! yay!!! i am truly proud to be a yellow... since last year's IHG, i nv regretted being one. i know most people in other halls see as arrogant, unfriendly...etc but that's what they see... of cos i don't think so la.. haha i don't know what's truth or not but minor things aside.. i love Eusoff! this year i have 3 gold medals from iHG as well: tabletennis, hockey and touch. it was good fun. training and competing and all.. these are memories i will never forget.. i hope i dun lose them so quickly.. my memory hasn't been too good lately.. ahaha
DP just just came to an end.. :( i was talking to my friends and one of them mentioned that she already has withdrawal symptoms from dance practices.. i do feel this sense of sadness or maybe emptiness now that dance is over. gotta resume our daily studying work week.. ahaha.. but that aside.. many friendships have been forged through this production. our effort put in has all translated into feelings. (okay the previous sentence sounds funny but er u get what i mean? haha) i am not too sure if this will be my last performance ever in my life... if i dun plan to join again next year.. since ballet days... this might be the last. okok feelings aside, DP today was simply brillant! even though we were all worried abt the performance..etc everyone did their best and gave their all and put up a good show! isn't that that matters.. oh ya.. plus we had fun!!! the audience seemed to appreciate our effort... yay!!!!
i really have many emotions tonight... maybe because i dunno... hehe.. taking photos with my mum, dad, grandma and aunt after the show.. i really am thankful and greatful for them who have been supporting me and been behind me all my 20 years so far... my mum and dad have never really objected to anything i wanna do be it sports, dance, extra activities or choice of school or for that matter anything else, like experiencing hall life. they do not really encourage but yet now i totally feel that they silently support. and if i'm not wrong, i nv really took any photos with them at any performance so far!!! goes the same for my sis and bro.. my parents kinda provided and supported us for everything they could.. such is the love that i often fail to feel or recognise. today, i also realised that my sis and bro are in perth! one to study the other to holiday.. see how busy i have been that i almost totally 4got... i miss them now...
i also would like to thank my dear C3 friends, two of them in particular, because the others were all dancers! their simple gesture today (giving me a bunch of stalks of roses for my performance) meant so much to me... maybe because i've been moody... over stuff these few days.. but i was so touched i really teared. when i was thinking tt i have no friends.. i realised that they are all ard me and i never really took the time to appreciate them or to show appreciation. same goes to all my other friends out there, i dunno why.. haha a rose meant to much to me.. jiayun, xiaoyan...etc i think i've been too busy and caught up with other stuff like trainings, dnd, sch, and han, that totally neglected my other frens. and when u realise that ur focus has been a little off, you feel so silly... i may not mean the world to my friends, but least they mean the world to me... to all my other friends who couldnt make it tonight, don't worry.. hehe i know that u're there for me...
okay.. before i wet my whole shirt with tears, half my academic semester is over. ihg and dp have been as rewarding as they were previously. if not more so. i now feel that i wanna make DND a good one too! to give back to Eusoff what Eusoff has given me... i hope i can do it.. yea.. not to forget gotta really start paying more attention to my sch work. DP photos to be uploaded if i do manage to find time or set aside time to do so... :)
