Friday, January 21, 2005 •
if only dreams were real and wishes came true... but i guess that's quite difficult in reality...
don't know why i'm actually thinking this way... i guess lorraine hasn't changed much.. she's a stronger person yet still as stubborn and confused.. and naive? hmm don't know.. it's so difficult to read a person.. when do u know what is sincere and from the heart and when is it not...
ihg has started and oh well.. i sprained my ankle again! damn.... i don't wanna have permanent swollen ankles... horrible u know.... these days i'm too tired or busy to blog... and my fren binbin said it's ur body's way of telling u that u need rest.. tt's why i sprained my ankle!
okaay if only... i wish.. but not everytime wishes come true... and i won't reveal my wish ahaha
Wednesday, January 05, 2005 •
to blog or not to blog? hehe... this will be the first post of 2005! but does it matter.. just seems like yet another day... maybe years dun matter now or what is there to look forward to?
i havent been feeling exceptionally well.. a bit like "you know ure gonna fall ill" and yet i can't get the rest/sleep i need... anyways i missed two trainings today and 1 dance prac. it really isnt me to just slack off but was it cutting slack or was it a pure case of feeling unwell. i don't exactly know.. i jus know tt i dislike very much that unwell feeling.. the feverish vibes.. yucks! please don't let it last... it could be because of lack of sleep too.. i hope..
my wait has proven to be a success.. haha but was it because i was "not well"? i got a surprise visit though long awaited for today... jus for a teeny while.. not too sure why or of what intentions.. friends.. oh boy how i dislike tt word when it is with the opposite sex. was i being hostile in my attempt to not focus too much on him that he left? or was it jus the normal pop by hi he wanted to do and had other things on his hand later? i wish i could talk to him more.. whatever for i don't know.. if our relationship is changing i sure do sense it... u know, like ure more "polite" with each other...etc
ihg is starting.. i am looking forward to it.. yet not exactly.. don't know why.. like how sch is starting next week yet i don't really want it too.. would it mean busier schedules... i'm afraid of dance practices and dnd stuff.. inside i guess i'm squirming but i don't wanna display it on the outside.. is that not being myself? i guess not... people who know me well can prob sense how i feel most times...
last but not least, jus a mini comment... i have been a lightbulb! hahaha many times i feel okok not tt many but quite a few.. with my sis and her bf... no one asks me out these days see... actually some people do and now it has become a question whether i should go out with them cos i dunno why for.. dun understand? i'll elaborate next time.. gotta sleeep.. seeya guys! happy new year! :)
