Thursday, April 22, 2004 •
It's the final countdown... lalalala....
Haha... Last paper today.. in abt 4 hrs 30 mins time -- BH2001 Macro & International Economics.
Hmm... Feeling worried. Cant wait for this to be over even though i have no big plans whatsoever abt my hols. But worried cos this last paper.... is quite dreaded. Hope i can do the paper.. i seem to know my stuff now.. i hope they turn out fine when i try to churn and apply them later. I didnt look thru tutorials nor will try to do past semesters exam papers. You could call it lazy or.. simply dont wanna scare myself. If i look at them now, i might panic. So i guess i will do the paper with my own knowledge of the notes. I guesss..... hehe this is the most major paper out of the 5 though.. 60%! cant believe i'm quite bo chup...
Slept really early last night.. 11pm after downing two panadol tablets. I dont know if it's psychological but i seem to be having headaches after papers these days and i cant do anything else until i rest.. so i reckoned it's best i sleep early and wake up early. Havent woken up at 655am in a long while and it actually feels quite good.. the morning air... the sunshine... :)
Going out with Lychee after my paper. Shopppinggg! That's what she wanna do. Haha.. surprisingly i'm NOT like SUPER looking forward to it... neutral to shopping for now.. hehe will tell u the outcome after my paper. Maybe i'll be excited abt it then! Maybe it's also cos i dun wanna spend $$ buying stuff i dun really need but like... hehe... this hols will be spending a lot already... i need a job! and time to work tt is! hehe...
Okok... Gimme the brains!!!! and all the answers!!!! Later...
Wednesday, April 21, 2004 •
2 Hours 09 Minutes more to IT1801 - Computing and Programming For Business
Woohoo! 2nd last paper for this semester!!! Hmm... hehe of cos.. yet again.. i'm going to say i'm not confident. No matter how much i study computing.. i dont think it'll really help.. why? cos it's computing! haha... i just hope i can go in the exam hall and write stuff... relevant stuff of cos.. dowan any mental blocks...etc
Thinking back, i cant remember how exams were last semester... seems to have flew past too.. but looking at my schedule paper for this sem.. and comparing it to last sem, seems like this seem is better organised and disciplined during exam time. Cant be for sure though.. all i rem abt last sem was that i kept going home. Didnt stay in hall... surprisingly this sem hall works better for me!
Hmm.. tmr is D day.... macro econs paper at 1pm.. then 3pm end.. yay!! but no plans yet! how pathetic... haha no one can confirm with me what to do or like i dont even know what i wanna do... hmm i guess i'll know by tmr.. or tonight. but first gotta panic for my first closed book paper tmr. hehe.. i'm worried mental block! in closed book exam mental block is worse than in open book exams... hehe.. pls dont lemme mess up my econs... last sem was a disaster for econs.. i wish i could have done better!
Alritey, i need answers! not luck... hehe tt's what my dear said... how true is that.. perhaps perhaps perhaps...
Monday, April 19, 2004 •
surprising how much i blog during exams.. hehe sigh.. this shouldnt be happening!! this is my 3rd hour of tv!! nono! lorraine shall concentrate later for at least 4 hours.. and tmr morning before the 1pm paper!
hmm anyway not bothered anymore... jus cant wait for exams to be over.. i'm always soooo sensitive where relationships come into play. hate it! why cant i be just a individual who doesnt care abt such stuff too much... anyway.. looking forward to thurs.. it's 3 days more! tuesday, wednesday, thursday! geee... *tremble* hope all goes well...
you guys should be really silly posts from me here.. but there u go!
Saturday, April 17, 2004 •
grrr... lousy saturday.. haha i can't believe i slept the whole day away! hmm i slept at 2am.. woke up say ard 2pm... and i still took an afternoon nap! i ought to be shot!!! haha.... sigh.. studying's real slow also.. not tt i am not reading... but it's slow and short hours and i dunno how much is getting in.. i hope i dont get screwed badly. then again who or what i am to wish for when i dont put in much effort....
neway, i just realised it's only 5 more days to the end of my exams... sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday! can't believe it!!! i better work hard for the rest of these 5 days so that i will not feel totally guilty. *worried yet not doing much* now isnt tt horrible!
meanwhile.. i am *bothered* but such bothers should and can wait till after exams! miss my frens whom i havent seen and spent time with in a while... love them nevertheless... love u guys.... *hugs*
to all those who know of my new blog address: can update ur blogs if u haf to that my address has changed if not no one knows and i update for nothing... hahaha lolx.. ok not really for nothing but u know i must reach out to more ppl.. lolx.. crap.
Thursday, April 15, 2004 •
2 hours 49 min before my "BH1002 - Financial Accounting" paper...
Woke up at abt 11 plus today cos a fren called to ask me a certain question on FA from a past sem paper. Gee to think i was panicking the night before. I went thru all the notes already but when i got down to trying to do a paper all the terms and stuff seemed so foreign. Eventually, after i got hold of my nerves, i guess the paper was do-able. Hehe... Slept late abt 4 plus 5 am but i really didnt sleep well. Broken and restless sleep. Wish i can take a power nap later just before my paper.
Isn't it nice to wake up and see ur loved one beside u... Hehe... at abt 8 plus i think.. my broken sleep allowed me to experience this wonderful feeling. Still i am not totally confident in myself in this relationship... doubts and worries here and there... sumtimes.. yet i feel i have to learn to trust... hmm still... happiness > unhappiness so by the marginal econs thingy, it is still beneficial to stay in it.. lolx.. what am i talking.. i am happy and in love... i like almost almost everything abt him. ahaha i emphasize almost cos no one is perfect. isnt love all that matters and what keeps it going... ok maybe not all the time but shouldnt tt be the very basis of why u're in a relationship?
my darlink's quote... haha according to him it's his quote. but according to another fren, this quote came from sumwhere else... but i cant rem where he mentioned: "nobody's perfect... and i'm nobody.."
Wish me luck for FA!!!!! I so need it....
Tuesday, April 13, 2004 •
what a super hot day!!! made me sleep whole day... grrrr.... hehe i'm serious!! woke up at 11am like tt.. then sumhow went back to sleep until 3 plus.. then slept from 5 plus till 7 like tt... annoying! esp when i hafta study... but dun think i'm running away from my books though.. it's just tt when u're sleepy how is it possible to concentrate!!! hehe luckily the night's cooler.. i realised i study better at night... i bet it's the weather!
been having lotsa weird dreams lately.. even in my naps... bleah.. and today i was rolling ard in bed before i woke up.. (the 11am wake up.. hehe) then when han==> my darlink hehe came into my room i dunno why i screamed!! lolx not really cos he gave me a shock.. ok.. he did give me a shock but i dunno why and what the heck was i thinking when i was rolling in bed... u know, it's the half asleep half awake mode... lolx. i couldnt stop laughing at myself then...
exam stress?? nah... i doubt.. lolx i'm panicking a lil but still taking it a lil slow cos i guess rushing really doesnt benefit me. *worried* okok back to books... =)
Monday, April 12, 2004 •
Well, 3 mths after my last blog.. this is what i have to say.. happiness lies in contentment..
Just finished one exam paper today. 4 more to go! today was "intro to philosophy". i'm really not good at philo but least i try and i think it's interesting. hehe... i dun think i'll get a good grade. quite worried i might do quite badly actually cos of certain reasons but geez.. heck! nothing i can do abt it now.. gotta focus on my 4 other papers. Semester 2 of this first year in uni is bad..
Here's what's written on a notice pinned on my noticeboard: "Full steam everyday. Must follow plan in order to finish the race! jiayou! You can do it! =D" haha.... duh rite... but i guess such self talk/motivation works...
I'm a happy girl now.. most of the time tt is.. cos i'm in lurveeee... hehe wonder how long this happiness would last. Even if it doesnt, i guess we live for the moment and when it ends, reminisce the happiness and remain happy cos we can find happiness in other contentment! i believe so... and of cos life's more than lurvee in a romantic sense just gotta find it! ==> short and sweet for updates from january. hehe
love to share pictures of everything.. hall stuff, dnd.. all the wonderful events that happened in these few mths but apparently i've lost touch with all my upload pictures accts and lazy la.. next time guys.. =D
